When I was working, no matter how much I disliked it, I always had something to look forward to. Even the pain gave my life meaning.

But now, I sit in my room most of the time and days pass without me doing anything except reading, writing, and watching YouTube videos. This seems like a great life until you actually start doing it. Its quite boring and meaningless.

I don't know if I'm just conditioned to work or if I'm putting too many expectations on myself but I need to figure it out. I thought by now I would be married and doing something enjoyable with my life but I still haven't hit on the thing I want to do. I think it needs to start with leaving the room more.

I asked Dee for a list she shared long back about things to do in Davao and once she sends me that it I'll try a few of them. Maybe write about my experiences and see if I can figure out some interesting problems to solve while I do that. My mind definitely craves solving problems.

I had a long think in the shower after writing these thoughts and I think what I need to do is interact with the world more. I'll double down on the idea of going out, this may lead to discovering more problems to solve.